I have been very moved by, first of all, snowtop's post and others who have posted about their personal experiences. Agree, everyone deals with these things differently, there is no right or wrong way.
I lost my dear dad on Christmas Eve last year. He'd been ill for most of the year and certainly hadn't been expected to live so long but wanted to prove everyone wrong! Now, this wasn't a tragic death or a case of going young. He was 89 and having worked hard during his working life enjoyed a long and happy retirement and for that we are eternally thankful. However, he did leave mum who was 90 at the time and they would have been married 69 years in March this year. This of course has left her completely lost with all their friends and a lot of their families already gone too.
The poem I've printed below was read out at his funeral and I sometimes find a quiet few minutes to myself and read it and remember all the daft things he did to make us laugh and the many times he showed how much he cared by doing little things for us and so many other things that dads do
FEEL NO GUILT IN LAUGHTER
HE’D KNOW HOW MUCH YOU CARE
FEEL NO SORROW IN A SMILE
THAT HE IS NOT HERE TO SHARE.
YOU CANNOT GRIEVE FOREVER,
HE WOULD NOT WANT YOU TO,
HE’D HOPE THAT YOU COULD CARRY ON
THE WAY YOU ALWAYS DO.
SO, TALK ABOUT THE GOOD TIMES
AND THE WAY YOU SHOWED YOU CARED,
THE DAYS YOU SPENT TOGETHER
ALL THE HAPPINESS YOU SHARED
LET MEMORIES SURROUND YOU,
A WORD SOMEONE MAY SAY
WILL SUDDENLY RECAPTURE
A TIME, AN HOUR, A DAY
THAT BRINGS HIM BACK AS CLEARLY
AS THOUGH HE WERE STILL HERE
AND FILLS YOU WITH THE FEELING
THAT HE IS ALWAYS NEAR.
FOR, IF YOU KEEP THOSE MOMENTS,
YOU WILL NEVER BE APART
AND HE WILL LIVE FOREVER
LOCKED SAFE WITHIN YOUR HEARTS.
Heartfelt best wishes to snowtop for starting this thread and others who are coping with their personal grief now.