Hello Steve I’m so sorry to read your sad news and to hear how your feeling which is completely understandable, there is nothing worse then losing a precious loved one in this life, are there maybe any online like bereavement counseling groups you could join and see if that helps you, like everyone else says keep talking sometimes that’s the hardest step to make to admit how your feeling...
You were so kind to me re the vape chargers before, we’d be more then happy to meet up and have that coffee we couldn’t last time when we finally get over hopefully soon...take care