again i get all calmed down and now im a freaking nut job again!
my turkish neighbours are sleeping outside again tonight and that got me nervous, my bf called me on his way to work saying he can get his friend to bring his car near our house so i can sit in that this evening and i said no its ok, didnt even get off the phone and felt the whole kitchen move! needless to say, i am not staying here tonight, going to sit somwhere where no buildings are.
its driving me insane, you can see i sound nuts, i feel frigging nuts.
i handed my passport over to the visa police today to get my residency, regretting that. if my bf still had his tourist visa for the uk and i had my passport id be on the first plane home.
experiencing this has made me realise im not cut out for living here, at all! sorry for the negativeness, its really getting to me as you can tell. need someone to slap me around the face and tell me im being an idiot, but seems im not the only one!
